There is a moment every morning that I am always awake before Simon, either I am getting up for work or one of the cats has leapt onto the bed. There is a peace about the house and a peacefulness about Simon. Nights are a place where the darkness can seem long and your sleep disturbed by dreams that you don’t want, but by daybreak Simons peaceful sleep is apparent and I get the chance to watch over him. This is one part of a day that I have Simon to myself, where cancer is not sat between us or on our minds and that for a moment I am not worried or thinking “are you ok, are you in pain, how are you”. I just watch this man that I love and just love him a little bit more. This is my moment every day.
Cancer is a dark fog that can creep between you, around you and invade everything, don’t let it, You need to give yourselves time to be that person you were, that couple you were. I indulge myself in the peace of this part of the day where I dare to dream.